Tuesday, January 27, 2009
HAPPY NUI YEAR!
one of the largest loh hei i've eaten. what to do? Large number of relatives, large amount of fooooood.
My cousins on my mum's side are all boys except for one girl whom i'm not really close to. Now you know why i don't wear skirts/dresses. These are just one half of my cousins(:
People kept asking if we cut our hair, HAHAH what do you think now? camera trick lah.
i really love the backdrop(: I didnt' wear that for visiting though, i couldnt make up my mind:/ HAHA dressup!
HAPPY NIU/NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALL! (:
but especially happy nui year to the my relatives! What a unique surename huh, i'm half peh and half nui(:
I'll be pretty busy this week with activties from tmr till sunday so i decided to drop a note here wishing everyone all the best in the coming year and happy collecting red packets before we grow into adults and cannot collect them anymore.
Have a blessed week! (:
P- Pray
U- Until
S- Something
H- Happens!
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Sunday, January 25, 2009
FORTUNATE ENOUGH?
our process for the steamboat(: i like the pattern to cute luh. look like erasers!
we were passing time as usual and we decided to see how we looked in short hair. hahaha after i cut my hair super short when i was 7, i told myself NEVER EVER to cut short hair but you never know!
I think i'll only enjoy today's steamboat with Aunty Barbara as she's just so genuine and real, and she gives from her heart, compared to people who share the same family tree as me. I sure can look forward to eating(my favvvvv), and then worry about losing weight.
Oh wow, CNY is finally here, tmr marks lots of visitings. Honestly, i'm dreading it. Sometimes i wish i do not have relatives and just hang out with people/strangers whom i'm not even related to not get so agitated. I don't want to see certain people whom bring back bad memories, i don't want to feel hurt again, i don't want to be rejected, i don't want to be reminded of how much we were taken advantaged of over and over again. Year after year, it never changes. I'm quite certain every family has their own problems but i just have no more eyes left to see, or mayb i've grown older and can finally understand what injustice is going on but can i do anything? nah, i've got to keeep burying my head in prayers cause i know one day i won't have to see them and endure such rubbish. They don't get tired taking advantage of people, do they? They just love showing off and they always think they are right no matter how ridiculous they might sound. Sometimes, i really wish they would just vanish and it might be better off not having such so called 'relatives' (esp if they dont even treat you like one). It's the truth, it hurts. Self denial? Definetly. I should really pity you because you don't even know what you're doing and the worse thing is that you do know God, yet you do not act a bit like a Child of God, always acting in your own childish and self-centered ways.
I'm just not in a good mood and i really really really wish i could skip CNY. Honestly, i'm just doing it for the sake of money and i'm not embarrased to say that because i rather not be a hypocrite. I don't need your pretencious care and concern which is just for show. WO BU SI HAN NI DE QIAN HUO NI DE JIA XIN!!! Times have changed and so did people and things. The fact is that it won't get any better, it'll only get worse.
Oh Lord, help me to forgive and forget like how i'm supposed to,
it's just so easy to say but to difficult to mime,
But to know what you've been through cannot be compared,
to what i'm going through-be it being angry, fedup or sad.
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Thursday, January 22, 2009
WOUNDS THAT NEVER HEAL.
this is what happens when our mouth has a mind of its own, and does not follow what the brain tells it to do.
KPing(:
I never would expect a small cut to hurt so long and so badly. Seriously, i self-inflicted three small cuts on my RIGHT thumb, third finger and ring finger by my very own 'try to keep long for once' nails and look what happened. A bit of flesh and skin came out, no big deal but it hurt like SHIT. I could'nt do all the basic stuff like writing, bathing... properly as the cuts were cut in a place on my joints! So whenever i flex/move a muscle it hurts!!! :( One cut, not enough, i had to have three cuts. Every few minutes i would scream OUCH, yeah it was THAT sensitive. I forced myself to put plasters when i go out but to no avail with it sliding down my hands as soon as i put it on. sigh. but such superficial wounds cannot be compared to those which will never heal i guess so be thankful, be very thankful. I really enjoy watchin the 9pm drama on channel 8 cause its really REAL and it does make you reflect as all these daily happenings happen. and plus Yaya is cho cute(:
Neways, CNY is just round the corner! 4 more days!!!! (((((: annddd i cann''ttt waitttt, i'm not really eager at all to meet my relatives/cousins though :/ somehow the feeling just fades when enough is really, really enough.
Random note: Thanks Aunty Sandy for your kind and thoughtful suggestion(: It will be well appreciated by me and Krystal to lose fats. haha, i hope.
and they'll know we are Christians by our love, by our love.
for it's true actions that they will see, and not by these mere words.
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Monday, January 19, 2009
PAIN PAIN! :(
SO, caralyn came over on sat for a sleepover and i laughed quite a bit, had lots of fun(: caralyn's really grown up now though, she's become more matured i must say. haha wisdom grows with age for some i guess. The way she said: I waited every hour every minute every second every milesecond for this day to come and now it's over. There's always a next time, girl! HAHA it's really funny, the way she said. I had GOOD EXERCISE for my jaws though! while trying to keep my nails long by painting them, i accidentally cut my two fingers with my very own fingernails! can you believe that? it's hurting like HELL and i cant even do the basic things well, in other words i'm doing everythin half the time i normally do. like smsing, bathing, writing.. :( I better go take more vitamin C to heal my wounds asap(: haha
About my last diploma module, APPLIED CORPORATE FINANCE, it wasn't as interesting and fun as i thought it wouldbe. The teacher is alright i must say, he's funny, practicle and considerate but he isn't VERY clear on explaning and making us understand. the worst part is, they gave us this super small room with rows of 3 and our class had 37 people. I understand many degree classes are held on weekends so we got this room so our row had to squeeze 4 people, it was the only row though. haha and my legs, arms, back were aching due to the almost 4hour straight lesson. We were just listening,listening,listening. For a period, my eyes were just telling me to SHUTDOWN for a while. He went on and on and on and on, and not many people have the power of talkin nonstop because so far i only know two. HAHA. most people in my class turned from enthusiastics to souless and stoned humans.
I'll be turning eighteen in about another 4 months plus and i WANT to get my licence asap so i can drive but the thing is i have so much fears which might affect my driving. I PRAY THAT I WILL OVERCOME THOSE FEARS(:
COUNTDOWN TO CNY: 7 days! (: WAIT TILL I GET MY HANDS ON YOU, RED PACKETS!
it's so much easier said then done,
but with the holy spirit, i know it can be done.
have you ever lose yourself to get what you want? well, i did.
you might want to look cool, to not be an outcasted, to be praised, to seem smart.
when will your reflection show, who you really are inside?
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
SAKAE SUSHI SAKAE SUSHI SAKAE SUSHI
This what i call worth it. hahha but all the plates were combined, four people plates and we still ate more! (:
Today was sakae sushi buffet date with shouko, chenyi and zann(: Didn't eat as much as i normally did but ate alot. haha the pics are proooof! I think we laughed and talked more then we ate man. Had fun, i think many people think we are mad, always searching for places to take pictures at every opportunity! hahaha i suddenly thought of the song 'The young ones'. Thank God for that nice lady who insisted on me and shouko paying the student fee as we dont have our student card(:
Issit just me, or is the weather getting really cold? I feel so cold that goosebumps appear on my hands and legs even when the sun is out! And the wind! MY OH MY, they are stronger then ever! I'm always complaning that i'm so hot but now it seems different. uhhhh anyway it's like super cold in Chiangmai, was reading the newspaper just now and its as cold as 2 degree celsius! I just pray that Uncle Robert and family and friends in Payap Church are doing fine(:
I'm tired. oh before i forget,
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MARGARET TAN HUI LING AND WEE MINYI!(:
to marg: I'm so glad to have such an awesome friend since 2004(: to minyi: HEY AHMA! Thanks for being such a nice friend all these years as well(:
sometimes the people who are the richest are the 'poorest',
and the poorest and the 'richest'.
if you only knew what i meant, you would agree with me.
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Monday, January 12, 2009
EVERY YEAR- IT JUST GETS CLEARER.
It doesnt look so big here but it is! hahaahaha i'm salivating already, what about you?
Today's the collection of O level results again, huh. Well, i think every year they are bound to have people who do well and not so well and speaking from a person who did not so well in her o level results in 2007, i must say its a really big blow. Not knowing where to go, not knowing if schools will accept you, not knowing how your next phase of life would be. But one thing just gets clearer, no matter how much you plan and plan, you cannot determine where you go cause that job belongs to God, of which i am so glad(: It's not the end of the world, neither is it going to ruin your life! So, to the very two special people (you know who you are), i've been in your shoes, or even worse! And i know the feeling of failing. However, the best thing is this, even if the whole world rejects and look down on you, God will be there for you! (: SO WHAT IF THE WORLD THINKS WE ARE LOSERS? I DON'T CARE, BECAUSE I ONLY CARE AND FEAR WHAT HE THNKS. Remember, you both are very special and unique in your own way so don't let ANYONE put you down, even if they are your relatives or 'friends' ok? LOVEYOU GUYS(: I KNOW YOU'LL DO FINE.
I had a crab galore on saturday and it was just magnificant! (: I mean you should see for yourself the size of those crabs and it tasted even better eating it at home with the cook being my mum! HEAVENLY i tell you. I ate it for breakfast(cause i didnt eat anything), lunch and dinner OKAY(: YUMYUM, *rubs tummy and salivates. LOL
Countdown: 14 more days to CNY!
Random note: Hair extensions are more difficult to use then i thought! Help! anyone?
I cannot stop thanking and praising God(: I LOVEYOU YAHWEH!
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Friday, January 9, 2009
SUPRISE SUPRISE!
Thankyou Lord for everything. ♥
thankyou for saving me from hell.
thankyou for giving your life for me.
thankyou for dying on the cross for me.
thankyou for suffering so much just for me.
thankyou for giving me a great home.
thankyou for giving me wonderful parents.
thankyou for giving me krystal, as i requested.
thankyou for giving me awesome friends.
thankyou for giving me what i deserve.
thankyou for showing me the right path to take.
thankyou for guiding me all this time.
thankyou for telling me what is most important in my life.
thankyou for loving me a way no one can ever love me.
thankyou for showing me why some things HAD to happen, even though it might appear bad.
thankyou for helping me to realise how much time i've wasted.
thankyou for helping me to pull myself together when i lost myself.
thankyou for forgiving my sins each and every time.
thankyou for giving me the freedom to worship you as and when i want to.
thankyou for the time you've given in which i wasted it away.
the list will go on, and there's just so much i want to thankyou for. Most importantly, thankyou for allowing me to know you, to rely on you, to trust and believe in you(:
I received an email and sms about my POBF (elective module) results and i had a pleasant suprise when i saw the results i was astonished. I mean, RIGHT NOW is the time. THANKYOU JESUS, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Even in times of troubles and tribulations i thankyou, for it's through all these that i'll grow in your strength. The feeling of having flying colours when failing was just a repeated cycle, is SUREAL. I must say, you get what you deserve, don't you? An apple tree won't bear orange fruits(:
will you be ready for your defining moment?
will you stand up for the truth and what's right?
we can only tell when that time comes, can we?
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Wednesday, January 7, 2009
LITTLE INDIANS(:
I was trying to face my fears!
Body temperature: 38 degrees i think. haha
the colours are awesome right?! hahaha so cute lah.
you can see fear in my eyes! hahaha are lifts for lazy people? HELL YEAH.
My legs and right shoulder are aching! Well, good exercise i must say, under the torturing and unkind sun. Went to Marina Square and Little India with Judes(:
I knew that one fine day i would have some problem with my ez-link card because i put it in my FAT wallet filled with coins. Yeah, i'm a coin-changer, dont believe ask my friends! haha anyway i was boarding the bus and so happen i tapped my card and the beep i heard was actually someone's beep. I sat down and the bus driver pointed at me, asked me to tap, i told him i tapped! So i went to tap again and i realised i didnt tap. OH MAN, from that second, i took out my ez-link card and it never went back to my wallet ever again. Learnt my lesson? Hope so.
My fear of heights came back to haunt me :( My legs were shaking and they well jelly-fied when i saw that super long escalator lah! My heart beated twice as fast. but i still managed to complete it! (: hahaha we met this australian couple who asked us how to get to Sentosa by cable car from Marina square, so we led them there since we were going to Little India. Suddenly, after we left the train at Harbour Front, they vanished just like that! We both were kinda freaked out and worried but we saw them downstaires! haha so funny luh!
I haven't been to Little India since i was like...10? haha it hasn't changed one bit i guess. The weather was merciless and we were dying there. haha luckily judes found what she needed. HERE I AM PICKING THE FRUITS FOR HER UNDER THE HOT SPORE SUN AND THERE SHE WAS STARING AT ME. hahahaha! The traffic there is as usual, chaotic! Headed home after that(:
Tmr's outing with the desert people! haha miss you guys so much(: Hopefully everyone can make it cause this year's only gonna get more busy. I'm gonna rest now(ohyes! i found the salaseh seeds after a gazillion years! hahah thanks judes! (: i hope tmr's weather will be awesome!
CNY COUNTDOWN : 19 more days! YAY(:
To know what you've got, and that others dont is one thing,
to be grateful for it or not, is another.
Are you constantly aware of it? I wished i was.
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Sunday, January 4, 2009
THE TRUTH MATTERS.
realise i'm always on the right? haha cause i'm always the one taking the picture!
These first few days of 2009 has been quite interesting. Today's service was really good. Very uplifting, very encouraging, very spiritual(: I thank God for such an opportunities. It feels so good to have someone who had gone through what you did, especially in terms of experiences. I long for an elder sister though, now that i'm one, it's so different. Krystal wants to have a baby sister and i guess that's just the way it is. Different perspectives from different age groups. To be the first in everything isn't that good sometimes and i wished i had someone to warn me, someone who had experienced something i was about to experience. Siblings are different from parents however, well i'll just have to live with KRYSTAL. hahah anyway i asked for it, didn't i?!
Sometimes, the people which you thought would never do such a thing and you thought was right, turned out to be the TOTAL opposite. Vice versa, the people you thought were just not that kind, turned out to be someone better then you expect. I've always seen your true colours and i knew my six-sense wouldn't fail me. When you push people too hard to do what you want them to do for you, it echoes back so much worse then you can ever imagine. It ain't no figment of your imagination. It's reality. It's called retribution. The time WILL come. There's nothing we can do but i'm SO glad there's someone who will do something that is FAIR(:
Many people are complaning that they're bored because school's starting later then usual and that we only have weekend classes but i cannot tell you how much i'm enjoying it. hahaha i can rot at home 24/7 with SO much things to do. I bet no one can beat me in that! But i do go out, it's just that people were scarier then those a decade ago and it will only get worse. Neways, tmr i'm going shopping for clothes for NEW YEAR! New Year means NEW STUFF, right? (: 21 more days to CNY! RED PACKETS HERE I COME, and i meant only the fat ones. ha.
If i could stop the hands of time, i would.
Even in my darkest night my light will shine for you.
and no one else but you, for the truth will set you free.
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Thursday, January 1, 2009
LETTING GO OF 2008.
I like all the colours together and try mixing six flavours together. thats what i call TANGY(:
Before Sunji left to Korea, getting tortured under the HOT sun.
It's finally 2009.
wow
that's
fast.
really
really
fast.
My 2009 resolution is going to be something more emotional, rather then physical. I know i need to let go and take a leap infront because i know the AWESOME one goes before me. I need to trust and believe that he'll lead me and i should cast my fears and burdens on Him. I need to forgive and forget but it's just so difficult, especially when the person you are trying so hard to forgive keeps stabbing you from behind time after time. Hopefully it takes time and time and prayers will cure this wound. I need to let go in order to learn and take it more. If i keep holding on to what i have, i'll be too dependent on it. I know, i know, i know! But i'm a person who needs extra time to OPEN UP, compared to others. And the opposite party has to be someone i can click,right!? Maybe, just maybe time will be the key to it. Meanwhile, ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE FOR THIS COMING YEAR OF THE OX! hahaha(:
Today marks the start of a whole new year, hence must eat until very full so the whole year will be nian nian you yu! hahaha ate so much! From Astons to Haagen-Dazs to desserts and more..it's truly a good way to start. HAHAHA yes i know people who live to eat agree with me, right? Nothing beats having a full yet satisfied tummy(: I'm always glad to have Emily as company. AGE GAP AINT NOTHING YO! lol.
Most people are starting school/work tmr, so here's wishing you all the best and JIAYOU! (: I can still shake legs for a while, while waiting for my POBF results :/ at least weekend classes aint in the morning((: The weather's perfect for just snuggling up in my cosy bed and watching dvds, off i go! THIS YEAR WILL BE BETTER THEN THE PREVIOUS YEAR! cause i've got someone to back me up even if it fails.
what you want differs from what you need.
do you really need what you want?
cause it's the human heart and mind after all.
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