Thursday, November 20, 2008
MATERIAL.
Seeing so many twelve-year olds crying, wailing, sobbing was so disheartening. Some were crying because they were overjoyed and were reaping their good efforts, and most of them were crying because their marks were not satisfying enough for themselves and most importantly, their parents. Hearing many stories of people/friends/relatives whom parents are not satisfied with their children marks is just heart-wrenching. Their parent's expectations are just OVER THE TOP and by my own personal experience, i can tell you that marks DO NOT determine what you will become and what you will do in the future cause it the Lord determines your steps whether you like it or not cause only he knows what is best for you.
Looking back, exactly five years ago on this very day, my results told me i didn't put much effort and hence the results- reaping what you sow. But i never woke up, did i? I barely made it to the Express Stream and was struggling so much in Secondary school- always the bottom few in class. All my tests/exams were always disappointing and i was actually pretty used to failing that when i did pass, i would be SO HAPPY AND OUT OF THIS WORLD. I was hanging by the thread, and always JUST PASSING. I was humbled when i almost dropped to normal academic in secondary 2 but i hanged on by the faith in God. Sadly, I was still blinded and continued not to pay any attention to my studies, and as i expected, i almost retained in secondary 3. When i thought that that was the ultimate, that was just the beginning. The real wake up call was when i got my o level results last year. I felt so hopeless and useles, but who else to blame but me? I bet even the ITE didnt want me because of my results, especially maths.
But it was through all these failure that i learn to pick myself up everytime i fall and through all these trials did my faith in the Lord increased! I don't blame anyone except myself and to see where am i now, what am i now and who am i now, its just amazing. There will be a way when there seems to be no way as Jesus works in ways we cannot see, He WILL make a way for me(: I'm really grateful and thankful that my parents are not those demanding kind and they put their trust in God as well. Miracles do happen, if you believe!
A LOSER TO THE WORLD, A TREASURE IN YOUR EYES,
THATS ENOUGH TO KEEP ME SATISFIED(:
YAHWEH IS LOVE(:
Meagan left her fingerprints
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